While brainwashed by Hydra, as the Winter Soldier, Bucky was made to murder my parents. It was staged to look like a traffic accident. Kind of a formative trauma, fucked up my view of my father for years because I blamed him for drinking and driving and killing my mother- it was a whole thing.
Instead of letting me know Steve- well. For all that he doesn't back down from a fight apparently doesn't handle this kind of conflict well.
So instead of having time to process this I get to watch a VHS quality recording of it happen in real time while Bucky is three feet to my left after a shitty, shitty fucking week of a larger clusterfuck, after coming away from the hospital where my best friend, Rhodey, was undergoing spinal surgery from a bad fall because Steve let our disagreement become a brawl instead of talking like an adult.
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Fuck it, it explains a lot, I'll just-
While brainwashed by Hydra, as the Winter Soldier, Bucky was made to murder my parents. It was staged to look like a traffic accident. Kind of a formative trauma, fucked up my view of my father for years because I blamed him for drinking and driving and killing my mother- it was a whole thing.
Instead of letting me know Steve- well. For all that he doesn't back down from a fight apparently doesn't handle this kind of conflict well.
So instead of having time to process this I get to watch a VHS quality recording of it happen in real time while Bucky is three feet to my left after a shitty, shitty fucking week of a larger clusterfuck, after coming away from the hospital where my best friend, Rhodey, was undergoing spinal surgery from a bad fall because Steve let our disagreement become a brawl instead of talking like an adult.
I didn't handle it well.