No I... I just don’t think I’m completely ready to talk about it. With anyone. I can talk to you about it but... We tend to avoid it, which I get. I understand not wanting to discuss what happened. Or feeling ready to face it.
Desmond... [ She can practically hear the cracks from her house, not in his voice but the mental cracks. Lucy wants to go to him; she can only assume that he’s alone right now, it’s not good. He shouldn’t be alone through this. Everything is that screwed up. ] Desmond, stop.
No matter what way you try to look at it, meeting you was inevitable. I’d made my bed in picking to side with the Templars and in the end I was made to lay in it. I was bound to be in someone’s way. It didn’t matter if it were the Assassin’s or the Templar’s or Minerva or Juno’s. We were all in their way, just a means to an end. A crutch. A stepping stone.
I know you blame yourself for what happened. But you need to know that I... I don’t blame you. I don’t hold you at fault. I knew what I was getting myself into. I paid the consequences.
[ How she’d managed to say all of that with just a small waver to her words was beyond her. All she knew was that one of them needed to be the strong one and hold them together. ]
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Desmond... [ She can practically hear the cracks from her house, not in his voice but the mental cracks. Lucy wants to go to him; she can only assume that he’s alone right now, it’s not good. He shouldn’t be alone through this. Everything is that screwed up. ] Desmond, stop.
No matter what way you try to look at it, meeting you was inevitable. I’d made my bed in picking to side with the Templars and in the end I was made to lay in it. I was bound to be in someone’s way. It didn’t matter if it were the Assassin’s or the Templar’s or Minerva or Juno’s. We were all in their way, just a means to an end. A crutch. A stepping stone.
I know you blame yourself for what happened. But you need to know that I... I don’t blame you. I don’t hold you at fault. I knew what I was getting myself into. I paid the consequences.
[ How she’d managed to say all of that with just a small waver to her words was beyond her. All she knew was that one of them needed to be the strong one and hold them together. ]