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[personal profile] moderndayassassin 2019-01-20 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[He pauses and thinks.]

A few, but I haven't named you really. I told Nida that I was unavailable, he was flirting just for fun though. I pointed you out to my new friend Vasquez, but he doesn't know either of us well. I can't exactly ask for dating advice when 'it's complicated' is not even close to a good summary.

[ Desmond feels that sadness again.]

I'd invite you to move in so neither of us are alone, but not entirely sure that's a good idea when we're barely talking. You could see if other people want a roommate? I think a lot of people are solo in their houses.
moderndayassassin: (too much stupid)

[personal profile] moderndayassassin 2019-01-20 07:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't want to have sex with anyone else. Although lord knows it would be simpler if I did. [Softer.] I only want you.

[He sighs.] I really have no idea what I need right now. A shrink, if we could ever get one. [Eyeroll.] I'm glad you're talking this shit out with people, but I can't do that, because saying I got killed is more sympathetic than I killed someone and then I died.
moderndayassassin: (rubbing face)

[personal profile] moderndayassassin 2019-01-20 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[Desmond's quiet a bit.] You can tell them the whole story, if it helps you talk out what happened better. It's not like you have to spare me on this one, what happened happened.

[He isn't sure how or why he'd try to defend himself.] It wasn't ... I don't know. I don't want you to think that I'm blaming Juno and I'm absolving myself, because I'm not. [There's a lot of emotion in his voice, he's trying to swallow past it.] She showed me that you were a Templar and a danger to the world so I'd stop struggling, and I was really fucking fighting, but I couldn't fight her hard enough. She could've made me kill all three of you. It doesn't excuse that I gave up and let it happen. I think she wanted me to be hopeless and broken, and it worked. I don't think ...

[He takes a moment's breath.] Even if you told me the truth about the Templars, if you trusted me, I don't think I could have stopped her. I wanted to believe that it would've changed things, we'd be too powerful a team and fight her off, but it's just not the truth. You were in her way and I wasn't strong enough. And I'm sorry, because it means the only way for you to have survived this shit was to never have met me, and that's something I can't fix.
moderndayassassin: (too much stupid)

[personal profile] moderndayassassin 2019-01-20 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
You can't mean that. [Of course he blames himself, of course he hates himself.] You didn't die because you're a Templar, Juno didn't give a shit about the sides, only who was most likely to get her out. If you died fighting the Assassins as a Templar, yeah, that was the choice, but in this case, the sides really fucking didn't matter.

Even if you could forgive me for stabbing you to death, which you shouldn't. [That's what he did.] It doesn't change that she did it because of what you meant to me.
scathefires: ('cause you haven't been spoken to)

[personal profile] scathefires 2019-01-20 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
not with that quitter attitude

seriously though please tell me youre not one of those revenge is wrong types
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[personal profile] skyward_eyes 2019-01-20 10:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know I can share the name. What if he runs out of wisdom for me?
bloodbathing: (f: 071)

private to infinity?

[personal profile] bloodbathing 2019-01-20 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Damn.

[ A dilemma, indeed. What does one do when revenge isn't an option?

It doesn't take long for him to come up with an answer: ]


Get stronger. Eliminate vulnerability. Prevent repeat.
clouded_heart: (Default)

html fail on mun's behalf...

[personal profile] clouded_heart 2019-01-20 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, it's really about if you mean legally, morally, ethically or whatever. What you would do. And what is the 'right' reason? What is 'wrong'?

I would probably cope, assuming I was dead at home and alive here, by ignoring it entirely and working very very hard to keep busy.

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