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un: dominant_da || Private to Eddie/Venom
[She's already had some reports from others that Eddie and Venom were alright, but once they've gotten started down the mountain, with how cold it was, with the snow, and knowing Eddie wasn't a fan of camping in the first place, she wanted to check in.]
You ok?
You ok?
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Anne are you okay? We both want to know.
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I'm alright. My vision didn't hurt me too bad. I'll be happy to get home, though, somewhere inside and warm.
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You are not warm?
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[She'll survive, but she's not happy.]
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Kill an animal and wear it's skin. Collectively.
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[Oh god now she's imaginging it gross] We'll be alright if we keep moving, and if we can get a fire going at night.
How about, how's your group?
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What? you can peel it and be warm in the blood.
[Venom snorts.]
They are sad. I will carry them down the mountain until Eddie wakes up. He is not well.
Why do you humans DO that to each other.
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Sometimes, it's okay for someone to be sad. It's about processing what you've been through, and that means feeling it out.
Humans can be complicated, Venom. One human alone is capable of feeling so much, and when you get more of them together ... sometimes good things happen, and sometimes bad things happen.
CW: mentions of suicidal ideation
[understatement of the year.]
The others do too. the woman, karen, she saw something that broke her, and the man, Bobo...he...
Eddie thinks I am not supposed to say that it is personal.
But they saw his parent that spawned him hit him. It was wrong for Eddie to take things but he is sad.
[Venom sounds annoyed then.]
Sad when he thinks of you, sad when he gets up, sad when he sleeps, so sad he sometimes thought of not being alive before met me and became us.
I do not understand. And he can't explain. That hurts me.
[He sounds deflated.]
Why I can't talk about the things the others saw. Why I shouldn't say things about him. Your species does not talk enough or feels too much this...hnngh.
[He snarls. an angry animal sound. a rage-filled noise.]
This place is awful Anne.
CW: mentions of suicidal ideation
She's so glad they're doing this by voice, and not by video; he can't see her expression as she goes through a few emotions. Overwhelming sadness that Eddie should be this bad off, anger at the situation that's put him into such a place, maybe even anger at herself but she knows - she objectively knows she shouldn't blame herself. She doesn't know the whole context; before he met Venom could be anywhere in the vicinity of forty-odd years.
Then, the unanswerable questions; how long has he felt like this? Has he ever tried - has he ever sought help - why hasn't he told her -
Venom will hear a breath in, the space of a few seconds, and a breath out, as Anne tries to recover and think about how to reply.]
People are deserving of their privacy. That's a big part of agency; getting to make that choice on whether or not to tell their own stories. Part of that has already been ripped away from us by what we've seen; you can't tell other people's stories because it's not your story.
Eddie ... Eddie needs help. He needs professional help, Venom, and that's not here so instead you're going to have to do the best you can. He needs to find someone he can talk to, at the very least.
[Please, not her, she wants to help but she wants to keep her distance and it certainly wouldn't aid things between them at all, not in the way Venom hopes.]
I can't be there fore him like I used to, so that's going to have to be up to you, can you do that, Venom?
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To go out and die but have everybody remember him.
It is selfish, to a degree. At least in Venom's mind. There's nothing noble in the other man's intentions. He wasn't trying to do it with a goal. Klyntar devoured planets because they had to.
Not because they wanted to.
They devoured because it was what they did. Eddie did not have to go to the life foundation. He did it because he wanted Anne to feel ashamed of leaving him. Because he wanted his network (whatever that was) to feel upset about him being right.
Things had changed. They had changed considerably.
He had been willing to give himself up to save the world. Venom it made sense. He liked the place.
He felt bad. That was what eddie had tried to describe to him, what he'd been learning about. He felt bad. they felt bad. His species could fill the nooks and crannies but Eddie kept them closed off.
He wanted to be sad.
Listening to Anne, Venom roars. It probably startles his group members but the symbiote can't deal it's all too much to cope with. There's so much in the creature's mind and he can't fix him.
There's a ten minute silence before venom messages her again.]
I will always be there for Eddie. He is my host. I love him. I will always love you, some part of me, for the time we shared because that is the emotion that it feels like when we are bonded. A host and symbiote.
here is the truth about your species however. If you do not, as Eddie would say, as his boss would say, as you would say, Get your shit together regarding emotions you will die. The aliens in our world out in the cosmos will devour your species. I despair of this happening - your species truly uniting - because you do not realize that you are stronger together. Then apart.
[The anger in the symbiote's voice is real.]
As long as you do not abandon him utterly I am content with anything you must do. Realize this. You two are more similar then you realize. I have access to 660 million years of alien memory. Distill it down? For all of your so-called strength, it takes just a small change for you and eddie to switch places.
For you and Foggy to switch places. For you and anyone here or there or or - you or any other human deemed different to switch places and none of you - none of your stupid confusing loser species - realize that!
...I'm tired!
I'm going to focus on getting these people home.
venom OUT.
[He saw that, on a TV show once. You end calls with "out" Venom wants to yell, to scream, for one horrifying moment his emotions are merged with Eddies and the creature wants to howl in fear and terror. Is this evolution? Where it could have taken them?
Of course.
Secure in his knowledge of himself, his place in the universe, his species, venom calms down. Unaware he's moving off in a real huff.]
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Venom isn't exactly being discreet.
He doesn't give her a chance to respond, but she does anyway once the connection is cut;]
I'd never abandon him.
[Voice soft, but resolute, and apparently now for her ears only. It was exhausting, though, this whole conversation was exhausting, the truths he had leveled on her about Eddie's mental health were exhausting.
Anne Weying has never been faced with a challenge she couldn't surmount, but this ... this was starting to feel like a marathon she hadn't trained for.
Training or not, however, she'll find a way to make it to the finish line.]