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OTA Video | UN: FormerPilot | & Private Video @Seifer and @Rinoa

[The video starts on a young man that looks a bit tired, but if you know Nida you know that's probably status quo. At least he knows how to easily position his arm to get himself framed well now that the video's started. And, if you were one of those already lucky ~~or maybe unlucky~~ enough to know him, his nervousness is evident in how he runs his right hand through his hair, his main nervous tick.]

Hey, Nida here. Uh, so I've been trying to figure out how to approach this for a week or so now, since the 'party' thing that happened. And while I've been through this device and a lot of different filtering options, I can't seem to find one that will, sight unseen, just filter to young adults.

So to start, if you're over, let's go with around twenty-two, years of age, you can probably disregard this message. Sorry, this thing is entirely about being younger here and so not really looking for as much feedback from adults that adult-ier than that.

[He has the decency to cringe at that word choice. 'Adult-ier'. Yeah, he half expects grief from those 'adultier' people for even making this, but hey, he's had a number of people give him hard looks because they were judging what it was to be a young adult with his experience so, to quote his boss, 'Whatever'.]

So, for any of those younger folk who haven't just shut me off by this point because my entire thing has been lame so far, I've got a proposition. I mean, at the New Year's Eve thing I noticed there are a lot more of us that I'd really, I don't know, anticipated? Which isn't an issue of course. And I imagine that for people from backgrounds where socializing and school and frequent releases of new movies [a small pause because really the guy looks half puzzled at that idea] was really a thing, it can be lonely here. Especially without people your age to talk to.

Especially with how sometimes the adults here get very awkward over our life experiences because I know I've heard that expressed sometimes.

Anyway, what I've been thinking is that we're here, and maybe we should figure out what to do with that fact? I'm not saying we make a young people club. Just, you know, network. Not electronic network, more the whole 'make connections with other people' network. Maybe meet up sometimes, or at least know who other people our age are, know there are maybe couches to crash on when you need to get away from situations, or someone to listen when you've got to talk, or just to share backgrounds without the inherent 'those life experiences are too big for someone your age' worried looks the older people get.

So, well, to sum up. Because basically I seem to be rambling and I normally only manage that when I'm having discussions of things like magic.

We're young. They're not as young. Sometimes that makes tension. So let's make friends who are young? If that appeals just, chat up here for right now? We can maybe talk about having a meet up later this month if people want that. Like that knitting group or whatever but for hanging out.

[He knows Rin wouldn't mind using the house for that. Seifer he'll... maybe bribe to be cool with it? Worst comes to worst schoolhouse. Or see if Billy and Tommy could host?

Look at this guy, looking more awkward at the end than he ever did at the start. Clearly a strange mixture of the nervous high school, or college really, nerd and a really built jock. And he looks like this whole process was like pulling teeth. But he does manage something like a smile because he figures that's the best way to end this.]

I'm shutting up now. Okay.

[There's a very quiet, under the breath curse that can't easily be made out, but clearly Seifer or Rinoa would know it's him cursing Hyne.]

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[Clearly starts back up only seconds after the last one ended, and he looks even more awkward if that is possible. Of course it is because the video is still pointed in the direction of his head. But said head is currently face down, hidden by the fact of being pressed against their kitchen table. And his voice is only somewhat muffled as he speaks.]

I mean, all of this isn't a stupid idea, right? You can't tell me you two don't get the judgmental looks whenever we bring up anything about life back home. I guess it might not be as always bad on you, Rinoa, cause you had something vaguely resembling a non-mercenary life, I suppose. But I've heard Billy [the first time he's actually used the name of the guy he talks about sometimes at meals with them to fill quiet gaps] mention how someone called 'Captain America' would give him grief for heroing and stuff, and I know Kamala was reaching out to try and talk to people when her birthday was coming up about what it's like to be older.

It's clear there needs to be some way for young adults and late teens people to have the sort of... possible social interactions, right? Even Garden got that, and I know how we were raised was weird. Just feels so much like I'm casting doom on myself because I'm on the older end of the range I made up, and I spend a lot of time trying to get some of the 'adultier' [he groans because what a stupid word he used, fuck Seifer's not going to let that go] to not make me feel actively like I have to prove myself. Literally had to fight a guy. I'll explain that over dinner but...

Shiva's Tits, how do you delete stupid off the Internet guys?

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[If only you could see him smiling here.]

What's wrong, Desmond? Are you too old to be cool?

I am the coolest of the cool, kid.

Be that as it may, you're also sorta old for the club. Sorry.

I know I'm in to older men, but not in this context.

Older straight unavailable guys too. It's an interesting type to have. Something about the forbidden?

Desmond, I'm not entirely sure whether you've put it together yet or not, but I'm a trained para-military intel operative. Or in other words, a spy.

So yes. Everything about the forbidden.

What? You're a trained para-military intel operative? Oh wait, I already knew that, because you're not subtle. Have your spy powers clued into what I am yet?

Maybe you can find a more fruitful option in your little group.

Edited 2019-01-09 20:18 (UTC)

You're an assassin, descended from a long line of them.

And what, exactly, is my little group?

Altair told you that? I guess secret is not a part of the Order here,

The one you’re making with all the teenagers.

Not exactly. He's avoided the word but there's things about him that tell me it well enough, as well as his other friends like Malik. And then there is you claiming to be a descendant of his, through others so...

I'm good at what I do.

And I should ask, how are things going with that lady of yours?

Interesting leap to take right to assassin though. Unless they've been stashing bodies in any haystacks you see around.

Complex.

It's the way they move, the way they look at people, the way you do. The way all of your group evaluates things.

The only reason I'm classified as an intel operative rather than an assassin is because of some really bullshit stuff with credit hours. Then again...

[He is glad for it.]

I'm quite sorry to hear it, Desmond. I really do hope you have better luck with settling your romantic life.

Altair might not like I even admitted to it there, but whatever. It's not like our world drama exists here unless we want it to. Although I know the word assassin freaks people out, with good reason. I figure we're far from the only killers here, from what I can tell.

That's not likely. Lucy and I have a lot of shit between us and a lot to work out. We're trying, but it's not easy. There's a lot more reason for us not to.

Something tells me the word means a bit more to Altair than it does to me.

And yeah, you're far from the only killers here. After all, I'm here too.

[The reason the message takes so long to come, though, is because of that other part. Nida can't help but feel bad.]

I'd offer advice but 1) I'm young and you'd ignore me, 2) you should ignore me because I don't get relationships.

The Assassins aren't what people would think of when they hear the word. The Order was created to help people, it's not actually about killing everyone, or killing for money. Most of the time it's killing the right people.

In theory we believe in free will, whereas the Templars believe in saving humanity by controlling them, that they can't be trusted with free will. But honestly both sides are full of shit at times. And make terrible decisions. I'd rather we all get our heads out of our collective asses and work together to save the world, but that didn't fly.

Do I really seem like someone who would ignore you just because you're five years younger than me? I would ignore you because there really is no one outside of the two of us that can understand. Loving someone isn't always enough. But relationships are great, when they're right.

All I think about at the word is that I'm getting paid to kill someone. So yeah, different thoughts. And SeeD doesn't make moral distinctions on whether we were killing the right or wrong people. It was contracts.

And I mean you'd ignore my advice on relationships. Which you should. Because of aforementioned not understanding why people even care about more than just sex.

You're one of the cooler 'adults' Desmond. You don't just dismiss me or my experiences because I'm a 'kid' with a bad life.

Yeah, it's not like that. We don't really get hired, so to speak. It's not like being a mercenary, it's a group that actively lives within societies and makes key decisions to enact change. It's political assassinations and generally whoever gets in the way, or self-defense. Assassins help people and often fight against repressive regimes. But we are killers at the end of the day. Every death has a purpose, and I'm sure people like to idealize what we do, but death is death either way.

Sex is great, but love is lasting. Having a partnership is where you can count on the other person, lean on them, trust them, laugh with them, share your life with them. And also have sex. Not everyone wants that though, but I know I do.

I just call you kid as a joke, Nida. You're only five years younger than me. I don't think age decides much of anything. We were trained to kill as children.

And that is why you are the coolest of the cool. For not holding my life against me. Some people go after my background and I get that. But I am me. Can’t change that.

Keep your talk about love. I am a soldier. There is no point in relationships like that when you can die any day. And no one looking for them one Garden anyway. Not with me.

I'm not saying the way we were raised is a good thing. I wouldn't necessarily want that on my own kid, if I had one. But we can't help what was already done, only move forward from there.

I was an assassin, and a soldier, and a pawn for many other people to use, and now I'm dead. I was literally born so I could die twenty-five years later. It was all planned. There are a lot of regrets I have about my joke of a life, but loving people is not one of them.

Sorry to hear that, man.

I mean, I am an assassin, a soldier, a spy, a pawn, and my life has been fucked up by time loops. And a period of non-existence.

All the more reason to take happiness where you can get it. Life is short and bitter and cruel.

And thus lots of really good sex. I've got that part down.

Frankly, I wouldn't be surprised if I don't outlive you, Desmond.

If you really only want sex, that's fine. Everyone lives the way they want, that's how it is. Just leave a door open for if you change your mind. You never know.

It's possible. You can't control that. If you die, you die. But you're not dead yet.

You make a bit more sense than my housemate. Maybe.

So, bartender... what do I owe you?

What I lack in book smarts I make up in street smarts.

We're friends, the advice is free.

[They're what now? Good thing this is text, because otherwise Nida wuld have gaped at him for a while. What is even with people here?]

Yeah. I'll be sure to cash in on the discount in the future.

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