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OTA Video | UN: FormerPilot | & Private Video @Seifer and @Rinoa

[The video starts on a young man that looks a bit tired, but if you know Nida you know that's probably status quo. At least he knows how to easily position his arm to get himself framed well now that the video's started. And, if you were one of those already lucky ~~or maybe unlucky~~ enough to know him, his nervousness is evident in how he runs his right hand through his hair, his main nervous tick.]

Hey, Nida here. Uh, so I've been trying to figure out how to approach this for a week or so now, since the 'party' thing that happened. And while I've been through this device and a lot of different filtering options, I can't seem to find one that will, sight unseen, just filter to young adults.

So to start, if you're over, let's go with around twenty-two, years of age, you can probably disregard this message. Sorry, this thing is entirely about being younger here and so not really looking for as much feedback from adults that adult-ier than that.

[He has the decency to cringe at that word choice. 'Adult-ier'. Yeah, he half expects grief from those 'adultier' people for even making this, but hey, he's had a number of people give him hard looks because they were judging what it was to be a young adult with his experience so, to quote his boss, 'Whatever'.]

So, for any of those younger folk who haven't just shut me off by this point because my entire thing has been lame so far, I've got a proposition. I mean, at the New Year's Eve thing I noticed there are a lot more of us that I'd really, I don't know, anticipated? Which isn't an issue of course. And I imagine that for people from backgrounds where socializing and school and frequent releases of new movies [a small pause because really the guy looks half puzzled at that idea] was really a thing, it can be lonely here. Especially without people your age to talk to.

Especially with how sometimes the adults here get very awkward over our life experiences because I know I've heard that expressed sometimes.

Anyway, what I've been thinking is that we're here, and maybe we should figure out what to do with that fact? I'm not saying we make a young people club. Just, you know, network. Not electronic network, more the whole 'make connections with other people' network. Maybe meet up sometimes, or at least know who other people our age are, know there are maybe couches to crash on when you need to get away from situations, or someone to listen when you've got to talk, or just to share backgrounds without the inherent 'those life experiences are too big for someone your age' worried looks the older people get.

So, well, to sum up. Because basically I seem to be rambling and I normally only manage that when I'm having discussions of things like magic.

We're young. They're not as young. Sometimes that makes tension. So let's make friends who are young? If that appeals just, chat up here for right now? We can maybe talk about having a meet up later this month if people want that. Like that knitting group or whatever but for hanging out.

[He knows Rin wouldn't mind using the house for that. Seifer he'll... maybe bribe to be cool with it? Worst comes to worst schoolhouse. Or see if Billy and Tommy could host?

Look at this guy, looking more awkward at the end than he ever did at the start. Clearly a strange mixture of the nervous high school, or college really, nerd and a really built jock. And he looks like this whole process was like pulling teeth. But he does manage something like a smile because he figures that's the best way to end this.]

I'm shutting up now. Okay.

[There's a very quiet, under the breath curse that can't easily be made out, but clearly Seifer or Rinoa would know it's him cursing Hyne.]

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[Clearly starts back up only seconds after the last one ended, and he looks even more awkward if that is possible. Of course it is because the video is still pointed in the direction of his head. But said head is currently face down, hidden by the fact of being pressed against their kitchen table. And his voice is only somewhat muffled as he speaks.]

I mean, all of this isn't a stupid idea, right? You can't tell me you two don't get the judgmental looks whenever we bring up anything about life back home. I guess it might not be as always bad on you, Rinoa, cause you had something vaguely resembling a non-mercenary life, I suppose. But I've heard Billy [the first time he's actually used the name of the guy he talks about sometimes at meals with them to fill quiet gaps] mention how someone called 'Captain America' would give him grief for heroing and stuff, and I know Kamala was reaching out to try and talk to people when her birthday was coming up about what it's like to be older.

It's clear there needs to be some way for young adults and late teens people to have the sort of... possible social interactions, right? Even Garden got that, and I know how we were raised was weird. Just feels so much like I'm casting doom on myself because I'm on the older end of the range I made up, and I spend a lot of time trying to get some of the 'adultier' [he groans because what a stupid word he used, fuck Seifer's not going to let that go] to not make me feel actively like I have to prove myself. Literally had to fight a guy. I'll explain that over dinner but...

Shiva's Tits, how do you delete stupid off the Internet guys?

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[Safe sex is always good to discuss.]

Fine. Let's make it blunt.

[He looks a bit nervous. A lot nervous. But he keeps his eyes on Seifer.]

You made me pancakes for my birthday. Since my parents died, no one has ever done anything for me for my birthday. And as stupid as we were at the start, I had fun when we were dancing at the party.

I respect you, I have for along time. What happened with everything was... it just was. Before that, in Garden, I was jealous of how you went after what you want. And I never did. Yeaaah, I know it didn't go well, but you try. And here you are now, finding friends, a place to be, and I'm jealous of that too.

[He's not sure what that has to do with this conversation. Is it the hot air? That was a metaphor.]

[Initially, Seifer wasn't watching, he's digging around for something to smash with a hammer. But as he goes back to regarding Nida he gives pause. Alright, guy actually does look serious and not like he's pulling his leg so...

Oh.

Oh to a lot of things. Though he'd hardly call what happened as simple as something that "just was".]

Jealous of my constant failures?

[He smirks a little, trying to lighten the conversation though Nida might catch a hint of there being a lot more pain behind that joke than he's willing to let on. Though he's not sure he'd call too many of these people friends. Casual, friendly acquaintances at best for most of them. Tony... maybe. He's not sure what to make there.]

Nothin's stoppin' you from doin' the same. Only thing makes this possible for me is these are strangers. If they knew who I was I'd have to go find myself a house in the North Village and never talk to anyone again. You've got a chance here too, so why not take it?

Yeah, if they tried to kick you out of South Village, I think Rinoa and I would have more than a few things to say about that. Loudly. Possibly with violence on my part. So you’d probably have roommates.

[What? He’d be concerned.]

I... am trying to do the same. It’s just hard. I definitely was a lot more accepting of Garden controlling just about every aspect of my life. Making my own choices is hard. Billy said it’s okay though. That I should try. So I am trying. This is me trying. I am just really bad at it.

[Oh she has to step in here for a second.]

If they knew who you were? What do you mean by that?

[Oh no, it's cool. Nida doesn't mind that you watched him being awkward at Seifer. He sorta needs a little help anyway.]

He means what he did. As a Knight. Which, I've told him before, by my point in our timeline, that's a moot point. Ultimecia affected him, affected both of you. He's a free man, and what happened wasn't his fault.

At least, that isn't how I or a lot of people see it.

[She's been peeping a little, but felt they were better off using their own words. They did well in her opinion! She frowns at the camera.]

Oh for crying out --- Seifer! If we don't hold it against you, why would strangers? These are not judgy kinds of people.

You know Hyne-damned well what I mean. And even if Garden doesn't officially get in on the witch hunt doesn't mean others aren't good to. Stupid to think otherwise.

[He's not getting his hopes up.]

Yeah, doubt it. There's a line. Pretty sure nearly destroying space time is well over it.

[It would ruin him. He's not sure they'd kill him but no one would treat him like he wasn't a monster.]

Besides, easy to judge someone you don't know.

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[Really, this is... Nida is gone from the video for a moment because he's rubbing his temples. Then look he's back.]

Okay, Seifer. Not kidding, I'm from your future, and I'm telling you that the witch hunt is over. There is still a lot of hard feelings toward you in Galbadia so you've been quietly encouraged not to go there. I don't know where you are right at this very moment in my time, I think Selphie is scheduled to do the next Seifer checkup.

And since you aren't a Time Sorceress, you didn't nearly destroy space time.

You really want me to believe that, somehow, they're really buying that excuse? And the hell you assholes following me around for?

[He's almost more offended they think he needs babysitting. What the hell? He's perfectly capable of taking care of himself thank you very much.]

Close enough. For all intents and purposes I might as well have.

[Yeah he's pretty much shouldering all the blame for this. And since he's working, Nida gets a nice upside-down view of part of the bench because he's dealing with nails.]

[Softly.] And what about me, Seifer? Might I as well have done everything too? Or are you letting others off the hook?

Let’s not forget Martine’s role. Vinzer Deling. Master NORG. Odine. Ultimecia. Cid.

[He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration.]

Of course not, Rinoa.

[It's different for her. She hadn't chosen that. She was controlled. As for the others he waves it off.]

Wouldn't be surprised if they were let of the hook. [Because people with money and reputation were more valuable than a disposable ex-cadet who fucked up. He knows his value. If the people demand a sacrifice easier to sacrifice the nobody than a head of state or renowned scientist.]

You are so stubborn. [Long suffering sigh.] I'm hardly someone who can tell you how to feel about what we went through, but you can't expect everyone here is going to be a judgy jerk.

I don't know. He can be a judgy jerk, and my psy-ops classes suggest that one projects onto others what they feel about themselves.

[He's going to cut both of you off of here. They forget Garden, forget everything he's learned since he started there? There is no leeway for him. That's just the way things are. And maybe Nida's a little right but that's hardly the best way to get Seifer cooperative to their idea that he won't be hunted to the ends of the earth. It's what he deserves.]

Easy for you to act like you know better. [He snaps. Now actually reaching over to cut off the feed.

Seems he might be more upset by the subject than he'd let on.]

[See, this is what he gets for trying to be friends. And yet...]

Don't be mad at Rinoa. She didn't do anything wrong. She tried to help. If you're going to be mad at us, just be mad at me.

[Falling on his sword, so to speak. How classic Nida.]

[Too late, his screen's gone dark and Seifer's opted out of this conversation. What Nida doesn't understand is he's not angry at them, he's angry at himself. He hates himself, he deserves the punishment, and he cannot fathom this easy way out they're thrusting on him.

He hasn't earned it and can't accept it until he feels like he has. Seifer lashes when he's overwhelmed. It isn't them, it's his own lack of coping mechanisms at play.

Maybe Rinoa will get it. Maybe not. Either way he's going to smash metal until Tony sends him to peacat time out.]

[Rinoa sighs.] He's not mad at us, Nida. He's mad at himself and he isn't able to hear differently right now. [Obviously she gets it. This is her life. now.] A lot of his attitude is a defense mechanism, just give him some time.

Time.

Like we have anything but time.

I’m staying at Billy’s tonight.

Have fun!

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