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sixthiterationtexts2019-02-02 05:54 pm
expeditiousness) wrote in sixthiterationtexts2019-02-02 05:54 pm
[Is he? Maybe not. Maybe he hadn't realized until Tommy's message just how much he'd come to rely on this Wanda's presence in their lives. He wanted to talk to her about everything that had happened on the mountaintop, too; he'd just been...trying to find the time. The right place, after all this, after he'd had time to process it all. And now...well. He should know better by now, shouldn't he?
So he shrugs in response, lips shifting to one side as he does.]
Don't really have a choice, do I?
[Billy sighs then, and his shoulders drop a little, some of the hardness disappearing from his face, leaving his expression a little lost.]
We're not gonna find her, are we, Tom? She's just gone, and this is pointless.
So he shrugs in response, lips shifting to one side as he does.]
Don't really have a choice, do I?
[Billy sighs then, and his shoulders drop a little, some of the hardness disappearing from his face, leaving his expression a little lost.]
We're not gonna find her, are we, Tom? She's just gone, and this is pointless.
You always have a choice.
[billy taught him that - when the young avengers made a space for tommy on their team. tommy’s not a thinker; he doesn’t do much planning ahead, just acts on impulse, but making that decision to do good with his life? that was an important choice, one that tommy probably wouldn’t have made otherwise.
despite what tommy claims about not having feelings, despite knowing that wanda couldn’t have left the village of her own accord, he’s still hurt by her departure. and billy’s a million times more sensitive, tommy knows this. he’s all raw, bleeding heart, all the time, and he’s always had a much stronger connection with wanda, sharing her same set of powers. tommy can only guess at how much his twin’s hurting over this loss.
he doesn’t answer billy with words - billy already knows the answers to his questions. instead, tommy makes the choice to give billy what he needs - emotional support. tommy isn’t used to playing this role, but the longer they’re here, the more practice he gets, and it’s getting a little easier, day by day. so when tommy steps toward billy and pulls him into a hug, it doesn’t feel as weird as it once did - it feels like this is what he’s supposed to do.]
[billy taught him that - when the young avengers made a space for tommy on their team. tommy’s not a thinker; he doesn’t do much planning ahead, just acts on impulse, but making that decision to do good with his life? that was an important choice, one that tommy probably wouldn’t have made otherwise.
despite what tommy claims about not having feelings, despite knowing that wanda couldn’t have left the village of her own accord, he’s still hurt by her departure. and billy’s a million times more sensitive, tommy knows this. he’s all raw, bleeding heart, all the time, and he’s always had a much stronger connection with wanda, sharing her same set of powers. tommy can only guess at how much his twin’s hurting over this loss.
he doesn’t answer billy with words - billy already knows the answers to his questions. instead, tommy makes the choice to give billy what he needs - emotional support. tommy isn’t used to playing this role, but the longer they’re here, the more practice he gets, and it’s getting a little easier, day by day. so when tommy steps toward billy and pulls him into a hug, it doesn’t feel as weird as it once did - it feels like this is what he’s supposed to do.]
[He wants to argue. Wants to say there is no choice, not when this place keeps taking that choice from him; he doesn't get to choose his magic, didn't get to choose his color or this weird power that comes with it, can't choose anything--but that's petty, and also bullshit. Or behemoth, as Nida would say, and that's just another reminder that he needs to not be such a child about these things. Other people have had it so much worse.
Like his brother, who's now stepping forward and wrapping his arms around Billy. It wasn't just him who lost Wanda, it was Tommy, too. It only takes him a second to return the gesture, arms tight around his twin as he takes the moment to breathe into it, to let himself lean into Tommy.]
You okay?
[All of Tommy's talk of not caring aside, Billy knows that this matters to him, too.]
Like his brother, who's now stepping forward and wrapping his arms around Billy. It wasn't just him who lost Wanda, it was Tommy, too. It only takes him a second to return the gesture, arms tight around his twin as he takes the moment to breathe into it, to let himself lean into Tommy.]
You okay?
[All of Tommy's talk of not caring aside, Billy knows that this matters to him, too.]
[ well. that explains a few things. it doesn't help her in the long run, but at least she knows that wanda isn't lost or hurt out here. ]
Thank you for telling us. I know she has a lot of people who care about her.
[ at least this means wanda and clint will be reunited. for all that beverly will miss wanda, she knows that wanda is better off back in her own world. ]
Are you all right?
[ usually the people who mention these disappearances are ones who care for those they've lost. she wants to be sure this person at least has a support network. ]
Thank you for telling us. I know she has a lot of people who care about her.
[ at least this means wanda and clint will be reunited. for all that beverly will miss wanda, she knows that wanda is better off back in her own world. ]
Are you all right?
[ usually the people who mention these disappearances are ones who care for those they've lost. she wants to be sure this person at least has a support network. ]
np. figured people would wanna know.
[he would’ve, if he hadn’t already found out.]
yeah i’m fine. thanks tho.
[so fine, in fact, that he’s making the effort to type everything out instead of doing an audio post, where people would be able to hear how bummed he is.]
[he would’ve, if he hadn’t already found out.]
yeah i’m fine. thanks tho.
[so fine, in fact, that he’s making the effort to type everything out instead of doing an audio post, where people would be able to hear how bummed he is.]
Yeah, I’m ...
[he’s fine. right? he’s tommy shepherd and he doesn’t have feelings, but somehow, tommy can’t keep up that lie. not to billy.]
Y’know, I didn’t get to spend a lot of time with Wanda back home. But here ... I mean, she said we were family, right after I told her who I was. Like, no hesitation at all.
[and that meant a lot to tommy. his track record with family hasn’t been great, present company excluded.]
She was cool. I’m gonna miss her. That’s all.
[that's not all.]
[he’s fine. right? he’s tommy shepherd and he doesn’t have feelings, but somehow, tommy can’t keep up that lie. not to billy.]
Y’know, I didn’t get to spend a lot of time with Wanda back home. But here ... I mean, she said we were family, right after I told her who I was. Like, no hesitation at all.
[and that meant a lot to tommy. his track record with family hasn’t been great, present company excluded.]
She was cool. I’m gonna miss her. That’s all.
[that's not all.]
Edited 2019-02-05 03:03 (UTC)
[well, yeah, this is probably a bad idea, but at least it’s a nifty distraction from tommy’s problem.]
did he tell you about teddy?
did he tell you about teddy?
A little. Of course, the stuff up at the shrine? I got to SEE what happened between them.
If I ever meet the guy, I'm going to punch him. As Billy's friend. Because it was bullshit.
If I ever meet the guy, I'm going to punch him. As Billy's friend. Because it was bullshit.
and you really think it’s a good idea to get involved with him after that? i mean, he’s my brother and i love him, but he’s kinda fragile sometimes. we lost a couple of our teammates a while back and he disbanded the young avengers, quit doing hero stuff, and completely shut down for MONTHS. this breakup’s gotta be hitting him really hard.
Trained spy, Tommy. I can be as patient as I need.
But there is no way I'm letting him shut down. You see him start any of that shit, contact me. I will bodily carry him from his misery pit and make him do some training. Hard to stay that caught up in yourself and all that when I leave him exhausted. Get him some sleep, keep him from thinking.
There's a serious reason that Seifer and I handle too much thinking with a healthy dose of beating each other up.
And the way I see it, he might be less fragile when he starts to realize how strong he can be physically. It's strange how mind can follow body, but it's there.
But there is no way I'm letting him shut down. You see him start any of that shit, contact me. I will bodily carry him from his misery pit and make him do some training. Hard to stay that caught up in yourself and all that when I leave him exhausted. Get him some sleep, keep him from thinking.
There's a serious reason that Seifer and I handle too much thinking with a healthy dose of beating each other up.
And the way I see it, he might be less fragile when he starts to realize how strong he can be physically. It's strange how mind can follow body, but it's there.
...just asking. I'm sorry. for uh - for your loss. I uh-
Is Arado okay? Her dog?
Is Arado okay? Her dog?
[damn. tommy sure wasn’t paying attention once he realized what was happening.]
i didn’t see him. i’m sure he’s fine tho. dogs are good at taking care of themselves, right?
i didn’t see him. i’m sure he’s fine tho. dogs are good at taking care of themselves, right?
i mean. he’s not weak, he’s just not like a jock or anything. he uses magic. me and teddy and eli were the ones usually throwing punches in fights - SPEEDpunches, in my case.
but now i’m picturing you carrying billy off to a fight club and i gotta say, that’s pretty hilarious. i’d pay money to see that, if i had any money here.
but now i’m picturing you carrying billy off to a fight club and i gotta say, that’s pretty hilarious. i’d pay money to see that, if i had any money here.
And if he can’t use magic? He shouldn’t be able to defend himself then? He should assume to damsel in distress position for someone to come rescue him? Fuck that.
And once my ankle is good, you’re getting carried off too. Because I have a feeling. ‘SPEEDpunches’ use velocity to impart force. I am not letting either of you get away without knowing how to throw a real punch or throw someone over your shoulder.
And once my ankle is good, you’re getting carried off too. Because I have a feeling. ‘SPEEDpunches’ use velocity to impart force. I am not letting either of you get away without knowing how to throw a real punch or throw someone over your shoulder.
dude, chill. i’m not saying he’s a damsel, and i’m not disagreeing with you. we can both stand to learn some new tricks tbh.
and now i’m wondering if you can carry us both at the same time. i’d pay double my nonexistent money to see you try that. ;)
and now i’m wondering if you can carry us both at the same time. i’d pay double my nonexistent money to see you try that. ;)
Not here. I don't have the strength here to lift you both at once. Well... I mean, I suppose a combination piggy-back and bridal carry would maybe be possible for a few moments. And I could probably bench either one of you. Just not both.
you were friends with wanda? or just her doggo?
[Instant thought. I barely knew her. Walked her dog a few times-
LIES Eddie she made us feel good! Made YOU feel good and you will HONOR that-
Not the time Not the time Not the time-
YES. TIME.]
We were going out.
I mean a few dates maybe.
this is really awkward holy shit I'm sorry.
LIES Eddie she made us feel good! Made YOU feel good and you will HONOR that-
Not the time Not the time Not the time-
YES. TIME.]
We were going out.
I mean a few dates maybe.
this is really awkward holy shit I'm sorry.
Edited 2019-02-05 17:39 (UTC)
wow. i had no idea she was seeing anyone.
sorry, dude. that really sucks.
sorry, dude. that really sucks.
[I'm fine-.]
Kinda...not processing it that whole temple trip was hard.
How'd you know her? I mean if you don't mind my asking we weren't anything ...official you know?
Kinda...not processing it that whole temple trip was hard.
How'd you know her? I mean if you don't mind my asking we weren't anything ...official you know?
i heard about that. i was stuck here but my brother got poofed up to the mountain. he said it really sucked.
[hoo boy, how to explain his relationship with wanda. buckle in, dudes.]
it’s not really a secret. wanda was family. kinda. we weren’t from the same worlds, but wanda maximoff back home is our mother by magic, me and billy. here she was more like a big sister to us. she was cool.
[hoo boy, how to explain his relationship with wanda. buckle in, dudes.]
it’s not really a secret. wanda was family. kinda. we weren’t from the same worlds, but wanda maximoff back home is our mother by magic, me and billy. here she was more like a big sister to us. she was cool.
I mean, I could try some tonight if you drag him with. My ankle will probably give out, Dr. Crusher has me on bed rest and elevation, but at the very least I should be able to do pushups with one of you sitting on my back. I think.
Is this the reality where ...Eddie Brock and Venom are bad guys who apparently kill and eat people a lot?
[He smiles staring at the stuff.]
...Did she do anything for you guys I mean maybe I could help
[He smiles staring at the stuff.]
...Did she do anything for you guys I mean maybe I could help
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